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Saturday, September 10, 2005
I'll continue on hoping
   Things are not doing well for me this week...

   First, I wasn't able to attend office last Monday because I was so sick thinking about my prayer language.
   2nd - I was totally bothered about my walk being a Christian for not having that prayer language.
   3rd - something happened to my sister that really hurt me so much...
   4th - I am starting not to trust people again...
   5th - I am so hurt totally and so badly about what happened to my sister... the pain is killing me...
   6th - I am so disappointed about Christians who professed themselves Christians yet not acting like one...
   7th - I am so discourage right now... actually I can't think properly again...
   8th - I started to withdraw my self again in fellowshipping... because I can't stand the pain of seeing this person whom I trusted so much and looked up like a Father yet done something terrible to my sister..
   9th - I feel so helpless... all I wanted is to cry... and cry this aloud to the Father...
   10th - I don't want to say that I can't go on anymore... I know I can... I am with the Father now... though everything has been messed up and everything really sucks... He'll help me up I know... He'll carry me.. all of these will pass I know...

   Hebrews 6:19 tells us that hope is the anchor of the soul. Hope is the force that keeps us, me and you steady in a time of trials... Don't ever stop hoping. If you do, you're going to have a miserable life because you have no hope, start hoping... don't be afraid... I can't promise you that things will always turn out exactly the way you want them to... I can't promise you that you'll never be disappointed... But, even in disappointing times, if they do come, you can hope and be positive. Put yourself in God's miracle working realm....

   After all of these I'll continue on hoping... I can't loose now and I will still hold on to God's promises.. though the pain indeed hurt and killing me... God, forgive me... please help me up to forgive... embrace me with your love most especially my dear sister... be upon her..

   Father, I believed in you all the more... I trust YOU more than anything else... I have given up my everything and all please restore me and heal me once more...     
   

Posted at Saturday, September 10, 2005 by Star-Tariray
LoVe ThEy HaVe GiVeN (2)  

 
Friday, September 09, 2005
Continue Thy work in me
   What happened yesterday bothered me so much. I know my whole family will be shocked on what I am about to tell them... God, I really don't know how to tell them but this must be expose so that light will shine and that everything in darkness must be exposed to light. I know there will be many who will hurt on what I have right now with me and I believe you Lord that you will be my guide about this.

   Lord, you are the justice and the judge though we may not be able have the justice in this earth I know you will work. You're my God, Lord and I do not limit your power as my God. I won't give up now, now that You are with me, now that I have surrendered my everything to you. I know that the enemy knows that my family is my great weakness and that I can't stand into anything most especially if my family is involved. I will not be discourage, please stay with me Lord and make me bear all of these... I know this will come to pass... I'll trust you all the more....  

   I believe God. I believe He is working in me no matter what I may feel or how the situation may look. The Lord has begun a good work in me, and He will bring it to full completion. Phil 1:6, 2:13 

Posted at Friday, September 09, 2005 by Star-Tariray
LeT mE kNoW UR tHoUgHtS.......  

 
Thursday, September 08, 2005
I am Dishearted
   I felt so down and really dishearted upon hearing my sister this morning... I am already at work talking to client when I remember that my sister is asking me to call her up... God, forgive me! I am indeed crying today and I am not feeling right... I know I wasn't able to handle my clients after I have spoken to my sister...

   Why is that, people whom regarded to be Christian still done something that I believed does not pleases the Lord? Why on earth the people whom you trusted so much and looked up like a father done something that I myself can't believed he could have done it?.... I do not question the possiblility of things in here... I know God let this happened for a purpose... it hurts, it did broke my heart and it is discouraging... but I already know the Lord and that I'll trust HIM even more... I can't help crying right now as I write this... I am crying... because I am so hurt.... I AM HURT...
 
   I am a liar if I tell you (who EVER Will read this) that I am FINE... I AM NOT FINE... I am not fine...I am really, really sad this things has happened, but I'm going to trust God. I hope this church elder of ours will realized on what he has done to my sister. And I believed that it is the Lord who will restore everything; but more than anything, I want God's perfect will... If things don't turn out the way I want them to, I know I'll survive, I know my sister will survive, because Jesus lives in me.. It may be hard for a while, but I trust the Lord.... I believed that in the end everything will work out for the best...  

   I refused to be discouraged, I refused to be dishearted. Father, the bible says that you will not ever leave me. You sent Jesus to die for me. I'll be fine - today will be a great day. Please help me choose right thoughts today...   

Posted at Thursday, September 08, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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