Saturday, August 06, 2005
A Time to Forget - the hurts and the pains, the sorrows and the suffering need to let them go... Ezsie Star
Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. Phil. 3:13
Today is Yani's 2nd year death anniversary.... It's been awhile when all of us were crying and into mourning when our dear Yani passed away on the early morn of August 6, 2003. I remembered when my Tita Connie (Yani's Aunt) called me in the middle of the morning of that day @ 0235. She cannot speak well and indeed crying on the other line then she told me "Ez, wala na sya"... I could not believed what I just heard... I replied her with a sob then hung up... I was still on my bed sitting then I shouted to my mom... Mommy... Wala na si Yani... I was yelling in pain of losing him.. then my eldest sister Ate Twinkle ran into me and embrace me... I was crying uncontrollably and refused to be comforted... I don't know what to do... then this cold wind blew from outside the window and I heard my dog Assi barking into me...
I dont know what happened next... all I remembered is that I am already infront of Yani's lifeless body in the hospital and embracing him... I could still feel his warmed body and now lifeless... My mom was there so with my other sisters who are supporting me in this most painful event of my life... feels like I'm dying and that so hopeless at all...
Deep dark secrets revealed and nothing was hidden... though truth hurts and I have nothing to hold on but to accept things and forgive... I heard alot of 'em... and it hurts me even more... like what I have said "I was not hurt that he left me but on what he left me"... I love him more than myself and I believed it is love that maketh me forgive him... I am not angry and that is for sure... no, not to anyone... I know we have flaws that how perfect we may seem but deep inside of us we are all sinners... just like what the bible says that "Love covers a multitude of sins"... and that is actually what happened to me... my love for him covers it all... I understand him and that I totally forgive him...
And now after 2 years, here I am still walking with the Lord and I believed my relationship with the Father grows in my each and every day... which I am so thankful of....
The end of one year and the dawning of a new one provide an excellent opportunity to wipe the slate clean and make a fresh start. the well known preacher Henry Ward Beecher (1813-1887) said: "We have passed through one more year. One more long stage in the journey of life, with it's ascents and descents and dust and mud and rocks and thorns and burdens that wear the shoulders, is done. The old year is dead. Roll it away. Let it go. God, in His providence, has brought us out of it. It is gone;.... it's evil has perished, and the good survives."
Those who know the Lord Jesus as their Saviour can let go of the past and move ahead with assurance because Jesus provides forgiveness and hope. Having confessed their sin, "forgetting those things which are behind," they can confidently face the future, "reaching forward to those things which are ahead" (Phil. 3:13). Remembering God's faithfulness and forgetting past mistakes will make entering another year a time of joyous anticipation.
Yes, we can leave the sins and failures, hurts and pains, suffering and mourning behind us, accept His forgiveness, and press on to the higher ground. As far as our shortcomings are concerned, we can make the beginning of the following year a time to forget....
Look not back on yesterday
So full of failure and regret;
Look ahead and seek God's way
All sin confessed you must forget.
My quote: Never let a dark past cloud a bright future.
Posted at Saturday, August 06, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope. Romans 15:13
It was two years ago, when I felt to ended my life... My Fiance died and as I looked at the world around me, I was so depressed by the moral and political chaos. There seemed to be no reason for me to go on, nothing for me to do.
I was into agony and indeed suffered so badly on what happened.. I was not hurt that he left me but I am so hurt on what he left me... The incident shaken my world and weaken my confidence into my self... I never know after all this time... and not until he is no more to explain to me the things that needed an explanation... things that I need to know.. things that needed to clear, things that is so absurd and things that I really can't comprehend so easily... All I am asking is WHY? I am not asking why did he died.. of course it is too obvious that it is God's will... and now that he is gone there is no one who will answer me... [deep sigh] Those were the days were I cannot make my self walk straight and think straight... where my world is so gloomy that I my self could not see the hope and that there is still a brighter tomorrow ahead of me...
At a church gathering one afternoon, I sat next to my youth Pastor who sensed my dejection. He asked me are you still mourning? I just gave a quick smile, shaking my head. Then he asked me "WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST CONCERN?" I gave a deep sigh and I didn't gave him any answer while in my head I answered him "I'M PREPARING TO DIE,"... then he shot back "WHY NOT PREPARE TO LIVE?" surprised on what I heard... That was the question I needed to hear to break the deadlock in my life. Then from that time on I began to see that God wanted me to live and to touch others for HIM. My attitude changed in my outlook in life, though not that easily but I know it is the Lord who is working out on me during those times.
I was not blaming God and who am I to blame HIM? He's my creator and the only reason I lived is to worship HIM.
Life can seem overwhelming at times, but God offers us hope. Apostle Paul wrote, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" (Romans 15:13).
Regardless of your age or circumstances, don't despair and "prepare to die." Believers in Christ can prepare to live filled with hope, joy, and peace.
The hope we have in Jesus Christ
Peplaces all despair;
He fills us with His joy and peace
And shows His love and care.
My Quote: NO ONE IS HOPELESS WHO HOPES IN GOD.
Posted at Thursday, August 04, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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"His word was with authority"
31 And he went down to Caper'na-um, a city of Galilee. And he was teaching them on the Sabbath; 32 and they were astonished at his teaching, for his word was with authority. 33 And in the synagogue there was a man who had the spirit of an unclean demon; and he cried out with a loud voice, 34 "Ah! What have you to do with us, Jesus of Nazareth? Have you come to destroy us? I know who you are, the Holy One of God." 35 But Jesus rebuked him, saying, "Be silent, and come out of him!" And when the demon had thrown him down in the midst, he came out of him, having done him no harm. 36 And they were all amazed and said to one another, "What is this word? For with authority and power he commands the unclean spirits, and they come out." 37 And reports of him went out into every place in the surrounding region.
How do you respond to the word of God? Do you hear it with selective submission or with the full assent of faith and obedience? When Jesus taught he spoke with authority. He spoke the word of God as no one had spoken it before. When the Rabbis taught they supported their statements with quotes from other authorities. The prophets spoke with delegated authority -- Thus says the Lord. When Jesus spoke he needed no authorities to back his statements. He was authority incarnate -- the Word of God made flesh. When he spoke, God spoke. When he commanded even the demons obeyed. If demons, the fallen angels, have faith in the Son of God, how much more should we believe the gospel with the full assent of our minds and hearts and entrust our lives to the Lord Jesus Christ? If we approach God's word submissively, with an eagerness to do everything the Lord desires, we are in a much better position to learn what God wants to teach us through his word. Are you eager to be taught by the Lord and to conform your life according to his word?
"Lord, your word is power and life. May I never doubt your saving love and mercy, and the power of your word to bring healing, restoration, and freedom from sin and affliction."
Posted at Tuesday, August 02, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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