Hold - Up... Robbery... What's next?
But despite of all these I am BLESSED!
It's been awhile I haven't updated this on-line diary of mine, I miss blogging but because of my very busy schedule prevented me to logged in for awhile... my written diary is always up to date on what is happening to me... [deep sigh]....I know things happened with reason and purpose and nothing happens by chance....let me share to you my story happened just last week that really made me even closer to God....It happened for two consecutive weeks and it really made me think, paused for a while and even examined my self...
I have a not so good experience last Friday, dawn of March 18, 2005...I was robbed by two armed males and took everything from me...nothing left but my self...I was schocked of course and really don't know what to do....the one on my right pointed a knife into my side advising me to be still while the other on my left were busy taking all my belongings from me...they took me into the darkest part of the street...I haven't see anyone around and there is no one would be able to help me up....I can't think properly during those times all I have in mind is the Lord and I kept on praying all the more...after the robbers gotten everything and ran away I was left alone in the dark street where they took me...what happened bring me down to my knees in the middle of that dark street and prayed...I am asking the Lord to give me knowledge & wisdom and courage to know what should I do....I am not scared to die that's for sure...it's just shocked me and really indeed surprised me...I am so thankful that God let me live and let those robbers spared my life and did not took advantage on me...though I lost everything...I am still blessed and I know God still has plans for me...losing all of what I have didn't make me sad at all it's just like as if nothing happens.....
I continue to live my life as normal on the following days and tried to request all my legal identifications....it was Holiday way back then here in my country and another “Hold-Up / Robberry” again happened on the 24th of March @ 1840 but this one scared me not for my self but for my officemate who did not know the Lord yet.... we were on our way home riding a public utility bus when two armed men declared hold-up... the 1st man was shouting and cursing us.. me and my officemate was seated at the back portion of the bus and one of the robbers which sitting near to us stood up siezed all our belonging.... I believed that God let me experienced this kind of situation ahead so that I would be able to think properly and clearly…the robber no 1 went into our location commanded me to stand up and transferred into another seat…he pushed me to the window side while commanding my other officemate to transfer next to me… my officemate were in state of shock and already hysterical… the robbers sat beside us still cursing and aiming the knife into my officemate while his hands were running all over into our body still searching for any hidden money that we still got… this robber as what I have observed will not take a second thought to kill us on the spot… he tried to aimed the knife into my neck when I reasoned out and answered him back but then his companion called him and advised that they have to go, the robber no 1 walked away for awhile and I grabbed that oppurtunity to hold my officemates hand and lead a prayer….. Were only six people left inside the bus and they got everything, before they left they commanded us to lie down and advised the driver to close the light then got off… my officemate were already crying stood up running to the bus door leaving me behind…I stood up and followed her…everybody inside the bus were shocked, crying and really empty handed after what happened. No one wanted to report what happened but not me. I advised my officemate to go and report what happened to the nearest police station together with another victim. It’s another hopeless case but I still have the picture of the two robbers in my mind. I could still figured out as well all the details on what happened… everything was still fresh into my mind, everything is just happened like a snap…. (deep sigh) we were harrassed of course… physically and emotionally…. It’s kinda traumatic especially to me, this is the 2nd time around and really made me wonder and asked God another “Why?” again…. I cried not on what I have lost, I cried because somehow one way or another I forgot to share God to this officemate of mine…I thanked God that He gave me another chance to share Him to this gal….
I have nothing as in nothing... all my things was taken away by the robbers all my salary for this month were all there, I don’t know how to go home now but I just let God worked into me. The policeman gave me 20 pesos to go home and I am so thankful for that…though it is not enough I kept on praying. I met a couple touched by God and offered me for a ride home…God indeed is so good…. I cannot think of about anything right now, when I arrived home I called my mom and she was so thankful that I am home now as well as to those people who helped me out… I proceed to my bed and cried out so loud….I’m praying and kept on thingking what I might have done wrong that does not please the Lord…no answer… I fell asleep and the incident was flashed back into my dreams …. Why this time it’s so scary…..
What I have been through will not hinder me in praising God.... it gave me a very strong reason at all to praise and glorify Him even more.... I believed God wanted to deal something in me and that I have figure out what it is all about…. I have given up everything into his care and that whatever His plans is…let it be done into my life….to HIm my praises will always be as long as I live...
You know greater that I
You know the way
I gave up the need to know why
I'll rely on the answers that You will supply
For you know greater than I
I know I am blessed .... Thank you for hearing me out ....keep safe, be bless and be a blessing and God bless you all...
Posted at Thursday, March 31, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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Posted at Sunday, March 27, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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* A LOVE STORY *
One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise.
Ah the beauty of God's creation is beyond description.
As I watched, I praised God for His beautiful work.
As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.
He Asked me, "Do you love me?"
I answered, "Of course, I'm the Highest of your creation!"
Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?" I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and
wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things that I
took for granted. And I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still love You."
Then the Lord said,
"If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
How could I love something without being able to see it?
Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of
them still loved God and His creation.
So I answered, "Its hard to think of it, but I would still love you."
The Lord then asked me,
"If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?" How could I
listen to anything being deaf? Then I understood. Listening to God's
Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts. I answered,
"It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your word."
The Lord then asked,
"If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
How could I praise without a voice?
Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing from our very heart and
soul. It never matters what we sound like. And praising God is not
always with a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with
our words of thanks.
So I answered,
"Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name.
And the Lord asked,
"Do you really love Me?"
With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly,
"Yes Lord! I love You because You are the One and true God!"
I thought I had answered well, but God asked,
"THEN WHY DO YOU SIN?"
"Because I am only human. I am not perfect."
"THEN WHY IN TIMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST? WHY ONLY IN
TIMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY THE EARNEST?"
No answers. Only tears.
The Lord continued:
"Why only sing at fellowships and retreats? Why seek Me only in times
of worship? Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so
The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.
"Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the Good News?
Why in times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My
shoulder to cry on? Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to
serve in My Name?"
I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.
"You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I
have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn
away. I have revealed My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge.
I have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown My
blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you
servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard
your prayers and I have answered them all."
"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"
I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had
no excuse. What could I say to this? When I my heart had cried out and
the tears had flowed, I said, "Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to
be Your child."
The Lord answered,
"That is My Grace, My child."
"Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You love me so?"
Then God the Father answered,
" Because you are My highest creation. You are becoming my child ONLY
after accepting my begotten Son that I sent to the world!
And therefore I will never abandon nor forsake you.
When knocking the door of blessing it's always open for you
When you cry, I will have compassion
When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you
When you are down, I will encourage you
When you fall, I will raise you up
When you are tired, I will carry you
and MOST OF ALL !!!
Never had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How
could I have hurt God as I had done? I asked God, "How much do You love
The Lord stretched out His arms, and I saw His nail-pierced hands. I
bowed down at the feet of Christ, my Savior. And for the first time I
experienced the LOVE OF GOD!
Posted at Saturday, March 26, 2005 by Star-Tariray
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